Update 1

So I have been on Concerta for a month and a half (ish). I've been up ped to 36mg and have a prescription for the next higher dose that adults are supposed to be on.

I haven't felt much different.. sometimes I feel more energetic yet my fatigue doesn't help me get up and do stuff.. I've also begun having what I'll call stress attacks.. I'll get stressed out over stuff and a couple times it's turned into mild(?) anxiety attacks.

*couple days later I realize I forgot to finish this...*

I've been feeling anxious when I think about an upcoming trip away from home for the weekend.. I worry about leaving the animals behind. I'm sure this is stemming from the last trip away where I wasn't back to check on things in the evening for a short bit. That one trip I lost 2 geckos.. I had someone coming in to take care of everything, which they did perfectly, I think at least one was cuz the furnace broke and kept running. The other I still don't and will never know.. It sucks cuz I was looking forward to going camping and I am now looking for excuses not to go so I can hermit myself away and not worry about the animals.

I've also been feeling really depressed.. I am thinking of making an appt with my Dr's substitute to see what can be done.. Maybe a referral to a psychiatrist? Might go back on Cipralex for it and see.. First time I was on it, it worked great. This last time I couldn't stay awake it seemed.. This time I'd take it at night and see if that helps.

We got part of the basement cleaned and organized.. Everything is still a wreck but I'm kinda slowly working on things.. Needs to happen faster so I can surrender the mother cat and the kittens who will be going to rescue to find good homes.

It's almost 5:30am so I should get some sleep but my mind is a mess. I feel like crying. But I'll lay down and play a game on my cell (that actually helps).

I'll post more on here when I remember. :)

Day 1 of Meds

So for the last few years I have become more scatterbrained and unfocused which I kept jokingly kept quoting my dad who would say "I'm practicing for Alzheimer's" and I would laugh and say that I had ADD.. I didn't think it was possible to have it as an adult especially if you didn't have it as a kid. I wasn't the kid who ran around like a whirlwind, I did well in school, no one mentioned anything so I am led to believe I didn't have it as a child. The only issue I had was I was shy.. To the point I could not read aloud a speech in front of even my teacher (that was my option instead of reading in front of the class).

In the last year it's gotten worse.. To the point I feel like my life is out of control. Especially now that the one thing that kept me to a schedule and focused one at least one thing is gone, my diabetic cat. I'm a diabetic but I take really horrible care of myself. I forget to bolus for meals even tho I was just holding my blood meter. I get distracted too easy. 

About a month or so ago (I forgot!) I stumbled on an article about how ADHD was different in women. I started reading it and it was like a slap in the face.. they were describing me almost spot on. I started researching more into it and the more I did the more I saw the symptoms and it made me realize that there might actually be a light at the end of the tunnel.. 

I saw my GP on May 13th and he mentioned that some of my symptoms could be other things like depression but there were some that indicated ADHD so I was put on Concerta 27mg. My first pill was this morning. Can't say much tho I was super emotional but that probably has to do for the fact that it's been 2 weeks since I lost my cat. 

Doctor says it should take a few weeks for the meds to kick in. I see him then to check in and see if things needed adjusting. 

My worst zone in my house is my desk area.. That will be one of my telling features.. Normally it isn't that bad, I do tidy up before people come over but I took pics of it as it is.. 

I'll be keeping track and posting here of updates, etc. (hopefully this won't end up the same fate as my insulin pump blog)

Right side of my desk with the Betta.. and the organizer I got. Doesn't help much but going to put it to use with the tips in the book. 

Left side of my desk. Most of the conference table is taken up with the 2 newt tanks and a smake tank.

Normally this section is not this bad.. Middle of doing laundry.

Right side of my desk. The silver and black box is for index cards which was my attempt to use an organizing system. Got a few cards written then I gave up. This is usually more cleaner as well. 

Drawer is normal.. At least SOME of it is organized tho you can't tell. The upper part is usually a bit more organized (repetitive but it is...)

I have found it hard for a while to sit and read long articles unless it's SUPER interesting. As you can see I'm putting Multitasking to it's test.. If it's terms and conditons and the like i usually don't read it or get my boyfriend to read it.